WHAT THE HELL

I was just forced to switch to that new blogger. stupid thing. that pisses me off. why do i need to switch?

so my birthday was last week. I kind of got burned this year. I was doing so well at work. NO ONE knew it was my bday. then late afternoon i get called to the front because something arrived for me. it's a vase full of flowers and the card says it's from my parents. i was pissed. i knew my mom did that just because i didn't tell anyone it was my bday. so then i had to deal with "what's with the flowers" from people all day. i'm so stupid though. i could have just made up some story about getting flowers. but i was so shocked i actually told the truth.

so the reason i got burned is i've had to do SO MUCH bday stuff because everyone was feeling guilty for not knowing. so last weekend my friend had me over for drinks and movies. then the next night my other friend had me over for dinner and drinks. then friday i had to go out for lunch because the people i work with had to take me out. I went out tonight with my family for dinner tonight. THEN this monday i have to go over to my boss's place for dinner because "we have to do something for your birthday". when will it end? i'm not much for attention being focused on me. it makes me uncomfortable.

oh well i guess people like me.

I wanted to write more but i have a migraine. it makes my brain all foggy. i can't think. i'm thinking i'll go to bed. I'm hoping the pain will magically go away. it never does. isn't it funny how you know better but you still hope for hopeless things? isn't that the definition of insanity? doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome...