The Good Kind of Hug

As i was watching my taped episode of starting over today i was relieved to see that kim is graduating. i was starting to get sick of her and quite frankly she was very rude at kelly's graduation ceremony.

anyway christie was upset about her leaving as she feels very close to her. Rhonda (a life coach) was hugging her. it was one of those big, wrap your arms around the person so tight, holding them, rocking them, and just consoling them kind of hugs.

those are my favorite. It made me think...when was the last time i had one of those? i truely can't remember. I'm talking years here. its sad considering hugs are so easy to give. but then how do you go about it if you want one? i mean you can't just keep hugging cuz you get that awkwardness when the one person starts to pull away and you just keep holding on for dear life. And i can't ASK for one since i have a huge problem with asking for things for myself. quite the dilema. i think its just one of those things that...happen. there's no planning..actually i guess that's not true some of those types of hugs i've given were totall planned on my part. sometimes someone just needs to be held in someone's arms, to feel that someone cares about them, to just sit (or stand) knowing that somoene is there...its a nice feeling.

I think that if i was to get one anytime soon i'd probably cry. I'm not really sure why but the first thought that came to me is i'd probably just break down and have a cry. mostly because that NEVER happens and a hug like that would most likely trigger one. i'm not a fan of crying and definitely not infront of people.

I guess its just all the stuff that's been building up these last few weeks. sometimes shit juts gets to you, right? oh well you don't receive what you don't ask for. i think someone should just KNOW!

Thirteen Things About Me You Probably Don't CARE About 1. A lot of times I have to let my dog into the bathroom with me otherwise she sits there whining, scratching at the door and sometimes barking. 2. My typeing is awsome and Sissy's is just ok 3. Most times I don't tell the people closest to me how much they mean to me and how much i value them. 4. I'm going to San Francisco next week and i'm NOT looking forward to it 5. I under-value myself 6. I don't think of myself very highly 7. I think I'm going to lose a friend and there doesn't seem to be much I can do about it. 8. Tomorrow I'll be moving desks for the EIGHTH FUCKING TIME 9. I'm planning a BIG surprise 10. Matilda (Janice's Kid) told me she likes me but not in a sexy way 11. Right now i'm watching andromeda and it is the lamest fucking show EVER 12. If i was smart i'd be pretty damn rich! 13. I'm going to go shoe shopping again this weekend, my boss totally freaked me out about making sure we have good shoes because tradeshows are extremely painful on your feet. Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. Vince 2. Beezaleez

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A Confession of Sorts

I have some bitching to do about Starting Over today but first I'll start with something that made me think.

They were talking about feeling loved by the people around you. Questions are risky but create intamacy between you and whoever. You have to have the balls to put yourself out there and risk hearing something not so great from the people you love. That's a tough one for me for sure. I've very guarded. I'm not willing to be rejected or vulnerable. Anyone who ends up having the balls to ask me the questions they KNOW i will not answer very willingly is a great person in my opinion.

First and foremost this is Sissy by far she has gone the whole nine yards and much more. I really do admire her determination. She just does not give up and you know what? I may really get annoyed but I think we have become very close in a short amount of time because of it. It's probably made our friendship very strong and you know I should thank her for that. For not giving up as easily as others and making sure she gets what she wants from me. Over the short amount of time we've known each other she has learned a lot of things about me that even my best friend doesn't know. Simply because she wouldn't give up.

I'm not quite sure why any of them stick around me. I am really quite difficult. I hate talking about my feelings and most people don't know how i really feel about them or a situation. sure they can ask but most times i'll not tell them, lie, or change the subject. it's hard totally opening yourself up to someone, no one really knows the real me. I'm much better than i used to be but still have a long way to go. If i were my friend i'd feel ripped off.

so a round of applause goes to Sissy for not giving up until she gets an answer to her question. And i really do mean that, she has literally spent over an HOUR trying to get the answer to just ONE question from me. now if that isn't determination i don't know what is. We don't talk much anymore, alas life has made us both busy, we don't have those kinds of conversations anymore, i can't say i'm THAT dissapointed i'm missing out on those conversations that last hours with her getting pissed at me that i won't answer her question.

ok so on a subject which ISN'T about me, that fucking jodie isn't leaving starting over. fucking bitch, she is such a godamed tease. all this boo hoo'ing and she ends up staying. and to top it off kelly likes her now and feels "compassion" for her cuz of all her stupid crying about bethany leaving. LAME.

but i can't wait until tomorrow's episode. bethany's replacement arrives. she's not there an hour and people are calling her arrogant and shallow. its gonna be so good. i hope everyone hates her and there are big fights. the fights are good. THERE BETTER BE A FIGHT, i need to be cheered up.

Sean brought up a good point recently about my move in the office. he reminded me that i was so upset about sharing this office with NC and now i'm upset about leaving the office. let's set something straight these are the things i love about the office
-we can shut the door
-its quiet
-people can't see what i'm looking at on my computer
-people don't realize i'm not working the whole time
-we can play music without having to listen on the headphones
-i can talk on the phone and actually HEAR what the person is saying to me
-there aren't a ton of people around me to distract me when i'm on the phone
-MY BOSS ISN'T SITTING IN THERE WITH US

These are the things that i don't like about the office
-NC asks me retarded questions ALL the time.
-when i need to talk to my boss she's friggen far away so its hard to talk to her
-the printer is way far away

So as you can see the pros definitely out weigh the cons. What am i going to hate about leaving the office? obviously i'm going to miss all the pros of being in there in the first place. I'll also miss being able to bitch about our boss.

but i'm a big fan of not having to answer NC's retarded questions and that's a HUGE pro. but all in all i still hate leaving the office cuz being in an office is definitely better than no office sitting in a fucking cubicle shared by four people.

If only it were a Joke

Well what do you know looks like I'll be moving desks for the EIGHTH FUCKING TIME this is bullshit. i'm so sick of moving around this fucking office. and it will suck to have to sit with my boss again. i could take everything except that when i have to make my calls to people i'll have to do it with tons of people around me to make lots of noise so i can't hear what people are saying to me. i already have a hard enough time. i relayed this concern of mine to my boss and my reply was "well you can come back in here and make your calls." to which i replied "is there going to be a computer in there?" and my answer was "no there will not be a computer in there" and i said "well that won't work for me" i really didn't get an answer to that, just a look, not a bad look but a look nontheless.

Well anyway NC and i are totally pissed we're losing our totally sweet office. no more shutting the door and bitching about people, no more shutting the door and playing music, no more shutting the door and just plain TALKING. guess we'll have to go back to msn if we actually want to talk. its weird how we both feel like we can't even talk.

On the starting over front looks like bethany is going to leave the house AND MY ARCH NEMASIS JODIE. wahooooooooo i can't wait for that stupid jodie to make like a baby and HEAD OUT. See ya no one wants to be ya! So far as i can tell she's leaving because bethany is leaving and she "is tired of seeing people leave" what a fucking baby, you're there to work on your fucking self not get upset about people leaving. she's such an attention WHORE. ugh i hate her so much. can't wait to see that episode.

Bethany's sister was there to help her out making the decision. seeing them makes me kind of jealous. i wish i had a sister. it seems like sisters have such a unique connection that you just don't see with a brother and sister. my brother and i were closer at some point. but then he turned into an asshole so i don't really like to be around him much anymore. i feel like i'm missing out on something. i don't know maybe having a sister is over rated but its something i've always wanted. maybe i'll have to wait till my brother gets married...HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA oh man sorry i think i was dreaming there. its sad but i really don't see him finding someone who can stand him. i can't even stand his asshole'ishness. but then i'm not looking to date him SO....

lol he does have one chick who seems to be interested in him. she's a fucking FREAK. one of those tree hugger hippies. the kind that are creepy. i mean i don't have anything against those people but i'm not sure they even bathe and that's just not cool. plus she's kind of annoying and her voice makes me want to punch her in the throat in hopes of damaging her voice box.

I don't get why just because someone is my family i have to like them. i mean i didn't CHOOSE to be related to them. wouldn't that be stupid if you had a friend you hated i mean that just doesn't make sense. why do i have to like someone who is only related to me by marriage?

i think i must be slicing myself with a knife in my sleep. i have a cut on my thumb and i didn't even use a fucking knife today. nor did i run paper along my thumb. so where the fuck did this slice come from? it really hurts too. i must also be fighting myself in my sleep since i constantly find bruises on myself from nothing that i can think of. i mean you would remember banging into shit....wouldn't you? I'm not the most careful person when it comes to shit like that. sometimes i find it easier to just bang into shit than to avoid it. i mean a bruise heals right? sure does. there are however certain ones you have to be careful of. the closer they are to your heart the more dangerous they are. did you know that you can die from a bad bruise? pretty scary. for sports like rugby and football the doctors actually sit and rub out bruises which are high up on the leg because you can get a clot. THAT'S FUCKED?

I'd be like HEY MAN that bruise is fucking cool and i HAVE to show everyone i know!

I think i want to start biking. I'm thinking of buying a bike. i'm not sure yet, i always have troubles buying myself anything. i have to weigh the pros and cons as always. but they say you should do different forms of exercise so this could work. plus i have this urge to have the wind in my hair on a nice day. its weird actually. how strong this urge i have to bike is. i don't get why as of yet.

On sunday i was told by janices three girls that i'm their favorite babysitter. their reason? ya i had to know too...it was because one time i took them to mcdonalds. yup kids are easy to win over. they also said they would want me as their mom. they don't like their one babysitter, apparently the girl makes them dance all the time, and if they don't want to dance she makes them go to their room and tells their mom that they were being bad...this babysitter is a fucked up kid. what the hell? they like me babysitting because another time we made chocolate suckers....kids are easy to win over...i think its funny i mean most times i like to just sit and watch the kiddie movies since i'm addicted to them. but it was still nice to hear i suppose.

i kind of want to start being more in their lives. doing fun things with them, taking them out and doing shit. the youngest, johnny, is just about old enough that we can do that. she's really little though so walking a lot is hard otherwise she'll start to ask to be carried and that's not cool with me!!! i pretty much have hre whining problem fixed though. whenever she starts to whine i say "i can't hear you when you're whining" and like magic she starts to talk normal. funny how that works isn't it. i hate whining its like jamming a pencil in your ear, VERY PAINFUL. Well anyway they don't like their aunts so i could be their cool aunt. and apparently i'm talking to the oldest one tommy about pads and tampons when her time comes, janice thinks its soon lol. i dont know if i should be the one to talk to her about it. isn't that an important time in a chick's life? oh, by talk i mean get her to use a tampon. a tampon because she loves to swim and lets face it swimming with a pad just doesn't work.

i dont know its nice to be around kids and its nice when they really want to be around you and love being with you. kind of a nice feeling. hard to describe. i never had a cool aunt so i could be one for sure and i'm kind of giving up on my brother to produce me some kids i can be an aunt to so i have to make due right?

Starting Over Update

So stupid jodie is still there. I'm really growing to despise her she's annoying and self centered. yesterday she got in this big fight with kelly who i happen to like. Jodie is on a diet and she expects everyone to "support" her in it. Meaning don't cook certain foods.

Kelly got pissed (and rightly so) cuz she feels like she can't even eat what she wants. i would be the same. she says "i'm not on a diet so why should i have to suffer" that could sound a bit bad, but i understand. and jodie is saying why can't you support me and shit like that which i see that point too. but she's a fucking hipocrite considering kelly had lung cancer from smoking for 25 years and jodie smokes around her SOOOO she really has no right to be mad that kelly has finally had it and is cooking whatever she wants.

GO KELLY YOU ROCK!

The previews for next week suggest jodie is having another one of her "i can't handle this i'm going to quit" fits. i hope she finally does fucking leave and makes room for someone less annoying!

this is the third season of starting over. You can leave the house in three ways.
1. You graduate: meaning you've worked through all your shit and you're in a better way.
2. You are a big fat quitter and just decide to LEAVE
3. You suck and they're sick of you letting them down so they kick you out.

Many people leave by way of number 1, as far as i can remember there have been 2 people leaving by way of number 2, and there have been a couple who have left by way of number 3.

SO you can imagine my excitement to learn that someone who has either "left" or been kicked out will be returning some time in the near future. Of all the people who have left either kicked out or quit i only liked one of them, she was really cool and reminded me a bit of me but WAY cooler and stronger. i was really pissed she up and quit. Watch it will be one of the others who i hated that come back to annoy me. but they were all people with big characters who will most likely stir up some SHIT in the house so that will be a big plus!! i can't wait.

I was really dissapointed with today's episode that kelly and jodie didn't fight some more. that would have been funny! but today the new chick came, her name is Niambi rhymes with bambi. she used to be a professional jumper whatever that means. i guess she just did the jumping sports like long jump and triple jump. she made money at it and was ranked number one for a couple years in a row.

You know it is very interesting how people don't recognize their own greatness. I mean this chick has been all over the world competing and has won quite a lot but she really wasn't even proud of herself. WTF is that shit? everyone in the house was like why the hell doesn't she get it. but i think a lot of people are that way. I'm sure if i was to talk to Sissy about this subject i'd get an earfull about myself. (BTW I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU ABOUT IT SO I DON'T NEED TO HEAR YOUR INPUT ON THE SUBJECT)

Anyway i have a feeling she's going to annoy me too, i guess i get annoyed rather easily. OH WELL.

Today was a blah day, i started drinking at 2pm, WHATEVER its a fucking holiday alright? Gin and 7 to be exact. I literally spent the entire day on the couch mainly watching animal planet. i love that channel, i totally missed it so much. Then janice called me at 8pm to go for a walk and we did.

It was night and that seems to be when the toads decide to cross the road for whatever reason. Johnny their youngest daughter had a rather large one she was carrying and i told her you'd better watch out cuz it will piss on you. and of course all the girls were saying no, then janice said its going to piss on you and just as she finished it totally pissed all over her tiny hands and she quickly BUT gently put it down long enough to give the legs of her pants a big wipe to get the piss off her hands. that was damn funny.

Janice and i have decided to start walking again since the weather is nicer. i wonder how long that will last... She says we have to start walking so we can get into shape and wear our bikinis, i told her i wouldn't be caught dead in a fucking bikini no way no how. she has one and she's cool enough with her body to wear it so more power to her, but i am SO not in that place. I guess you kind of have to get ok with your body if you've had three children. i mean so many doctors and nurses down there, you really can't be shy can you?

what do you do when you see a baby that is so UGLY? whoever says all babies are beautiful must be fucking BLIND. and what do you do when its your friend's baby you're seeing for the first time? you'd better be a damn good lier. its a good thing that a parent could have the ugliest fucking baby ever but they're too blinded by love to see. WELL ALL THE REST OF US DON'T HAVE THE LUXURY. i wish i could say "that thing is hideous!" of course i wouldn't but i wish i could. so far i havn't had to worry about this situation but i'm sure Beez will be procreating ASAP so if her kids are ugly i'm not babysitting because i dont' want to be associated with ugliness. HAHAHA i'm totally going to get in trouble for saying that IT WAS A JOKE!!!don't send me an angry email!! i wasn't joking about the babysitting part tho, don't dump your kids on me until they're fully potty trained and can pour their own juice!!! OH and they can actually TALK. I'm a picky babysitter when i'm doing it for FREE.

On another note has anyone noticed its that time of year again? you know, the one when mother nature decides to thin out her crop or morons? The roadkill is definitely starting to pile up around here. Mostly i see rabbits and racoons, occasional squirrels and skunks and once in awhile i'll see cats. This past week i saw a possum roadkill for the first time. never seen that. OH sometimes i'll see a porcupine. does anyone else think its weird that someone doesn't get a flat tire from hitting a porcupine, or is it just me?

did you know that the city actually pays people to just drive around and pick up roadkill? and you know they don't even do anything with it they just chuck it into the ditch more or a nearby field depending on the road they're on. That's fucked. could you imagine telling people that you collect roadkill for a living? i wonder how much they get paid. that's pretty retarded that my tax dollars are going to somoene to pick up fucking roadkill. fuck, i don't care if there are carcasses on the fucking road. i guess it goes more to disposing of things like deer and the large animals like that. but still. oh and those roadkill collecters are fucked up people. they think its funny to put a dead rabbit in each other's lockers as a joke. if i found some dead and bleeding body in my locker oozing all over my shit i'd be pissed and there'd be hell to pay.

I've got more to say but i tend to get annoyed when people do long ass posts unless they're actually interesting. if they're interesting i usually end up wishing there was more. but alas i'm not quite interesting enough...maybe i'll get there one day

Thirteen Things I WONDER 1. I wonder how I'm going to learn how to fly on my own. Like superman. none of that airplane shit!!! 2. I wonder why people think its cool to put euro lights on a fucking CUBE VAN!!! 3. I wonder what the largest number of animals i'll own at one time will be, i bet a lot 4. I wonder how people can handle working at places like the humane society or being animal cops. 5. I wonder when the fuck i'm going to be able to move out of my fucking parents HOUSE 6. I wonder where my life is going to lead 7. I wonder when i'm going to be able to afford my dream worskshop! 8. I wonder when i'm going to get the blue penguin up and running. 9. I wonder what it feels like to punch someone in the face 10. I wonder what it feels like to be in a car that is flipping in the air 11. I wonder what it feels like to be totally free of all my insecurities, inhibitions, worries and retarded things 12. I wonder what it is like to be smart 13. I wonder what it is like to be successful Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. Vince 2. Beezaleez

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Thirteen Things about ME 1…. For some strange stroke of luck i have the house to myself on a thursday night so i'm taking full advantage! 2. I drink wine from a drinking glass. Fuck those wine glasses they're way too small! 3. I love Pier 1 I just picked up two new blue glasses, they're so SWEET! 4. I'm addicted to blue glass..glasses 5. Blue is my favorite color 6. I'm stubborn 7. I've never had a boyfriend...ever... 8. I went into work an hour and a half late today and my boss freaked out and started calling everywhere trying to find me cuz she thought i was hurt or something. 9. I always put three ice cubes in my drinks...it can't be more or less. 10. This is hard i can't think of anymore things about me...OH i wish i could fly 11. Right now i have music blaring on my surround sound 12. I'm eating some sort of fish stick right now and its gross but i keep eating it 13. I can't dance...at all...it just looks wrong....SO wrong! Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. Vince 2. Beezaleez

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Old People

I just finished watching my show Starting Over which is on at 10am so i must tape it. its a reality show for women about women. its for those that need guidance. past women in the house had issues such as: trust, getting over a loved one's death, trying to mend broken relationships, weight issues, and so on. pretty much anything. there are two life coaches ronda and iyanla who guide these women and there is a psychologist Dr. Stan.

anyway todays theme was about getting old. and one aspect was that you should have older women in your life. it made me sit and think. i really do have a lot of older women around me. and i love older people. they have some amazing stories to tell, great advice, and life long experience that i just don't have and love the opportunity to learn from. i just love to sit and talk with them. hear about years gone by. great trips they've gone on, places they've been to, mistakes they've made. pretty much anything i'm game for.

now don't get me wrong old people annoy the crap out of me too. for instance their annoying tendancy to drive 20 under the fucking speed limit. GET OFF THE ROAD OR GET OUT OF MY WAY! or the fact that they'll tell you the same story over and over again because they honestly don't ever remember telling you the first or third time. but generally i enjoy them.

i really do think its important to have older women in your life to learn from. that's pretty sad if you don't have that...besides your mother i mean. i have a few interesting older women in my life and i really do enjoy them, sometimes i prefer them to people my own age.

another reason i like the show is with a house full of women there's bound to be a few cat fights. SO FUNNY. oh man i kill myself laughing sometimes at the retarded things women do. i really hope i'm not like that. i'm pretty sure i'm not. i'd like to go on that show and just be a total bitch to everyone. i think that would be funny. i bet i'd get them good ratings! everyone loves to hate at least one person on reality shows. i'm starting to get sick of a couple of the chicks on the show, but there's a board of review today or friday so hopefully the one chick jodie is GONE. they've been there a couple months already and its time for jodie to fuck off i can't stand her anymore. i never really liked her but now i'm just ready for her to be gone!

the newest chick is bethany and two months ago her daughter died in a car accident. it was so sad hearing her story. she's in the house to learn how to move on. i'm wondering if its a bit early and so are most of the people in the house. but i wouldn't know i've never lost a kid....i've never had a kid....

well anyway i'm sure you love reading about a show you've never watched. i should go to bed.

Slacker

I've really been slacking with my working out. I think i'm just getting discouraged. i've been doing it for a long while with no visible results. i must be doing something wrong. Or maybe i'm just cursed to be overbese with a gross body. I'm leaning towards that one myself.

HEY PERFECT GUY WHO SAYS HE DOESN'T CARE WHAT HIS CHICK LOOKS LIKE BECAUSE HE LOVES HER JUST THE WAY SHE IS...YOU CAN COME ON MY WAY RIGHT ABOUT NOW!

wouldn't that be a self esteem booster? i don't think i'd believe it even if a guy ever said that to me.

I've made a mental note to stop telling people i like to work with glass. i told NC and like others before her she went on the whole "you should start a business" thing. annoying but i am getting pretty good at thwarting that conversation. i've had it many times and its getting old. as of yet no one has been able to convince me it would be worth while.

right in the middle of writing this post my best friend tells me she's upset that i haven't mentioned that she's getting married. pisses me off when she does that since i was literally writing about it when she bitched to me. i almost deleted it since i really hate when people do that. but i decided i wouldn't after all.

so ya she's getting married so that's cool. anyone who knows them knew it was coming so it wasn't that big of a surprise. i guess it was just "surprising" that it was so soon.

all this wedding stuff has got me thinking about women's obsession with getting married. what is it about weddings that makes women so obsessed about it and can't wait to have it? if you ask me a wedding is so much fucking work, if i thought i was going ot get married i would dread it. and me being me wouldn't ask for help and would try to do it all myself and probably have a mental break down because of how much fucking work they are.

i don't think that our society has that "women should get married and pump out some kids" mentality as much anymore. so why are most girls so wedding crazy? i don't get it. i sure am not like that at all.

meh i know my friend's wedding is going to be hella awsome since her mom is so awsome and totally one of those crazy creative people who can do anything. right now she's having troubles picking her wedding party. i don't envy her, its a tough thing. even picking a maid of honor is a tough thing to do. you really have to make sure the person will work their ass off for you to make the day run smooth and work out. plus i imagine you'd want to pick someone who can deal with stress. OH and someone who will take your shit when you get totally bitchy which is inevitable.

my one request would be OPEN BAR. i'm a strong believer of you shouldn't make your guests pay for drinks. i mean you're prolly getting sweet expensive wedding gifts so you might as well reward them right?

should be a good time and i couldn't be more happy for them.

on a work related note NC and I are totally getting annoyed with this new project we've been given. its totally unrealistic and stupid. i'll get so far with my part and it'll be moving smoothly and i'll feel like i'm getting somewhere and then my boss just changes shit around and creates tons more work. i'm getting pissed. i stopped working today at 4:30 and decided i wasn't going to do anything until quitting time. that'll show her!

I have to get my passport tomorrow. i have no idea where i'm going except that its in kitchener. i hope i don't get fucking lost. that would be the way woudln't it? when you're in a time crunch you get lost.

ok i'm totally tired and i feel like i just rambled about nothing so i'm out!

Did it Again

Yes I did it again, I had to. I went clothes shopping again. This time I hit the JACKPOT! SERIOUSLY so awsome. Practically everything i tried on fit and looked GOOD. that happens like once every FIVE years. i was so happy. i'm always hitting up this store for clothes FIRST everytime i gotta go shopping.

the store is called addition elle. it is literally the only fat people clothes store that i've been in that actually had NICE looking clothes. most of them in other stores are so ugly. i mean seriously, overbese people got style too ya know!

i spent WAY too much but i literally have not been serious clothes shopping in about 2 years SO i needed the clothes. but fuck, looks like i'll have to put off buying that sandblaster for a couple months at least until i get my new paycheck which will be the end of april or beginning of june.

i even got some shoes. i'm not sure i want to keep them yet they were like 120.00 after tax. so maybe next weekend i'll hit up my fav shoe store called factory shoes. much more selection than this shitty store i went to and WAY cheaper for the name brands.

OMG i jsut got the biggest craving for some bacon right now. one time my best friend from like grade 6 and i cooked up a whole package of bacon for the two of us, we then had some toast and waffles with it too and some ALCOHOLIC shirley temples. we kinda just threw in whatever alcohol i had which was triple sec, amaretto and something else. it was awsome. i'll never forget that night. i miss times like that. i heart bacon. i love how salty it is and the taste of it. its just good. i don't get how people hate bacon, they're freaks! FREAKS!!!!

Well anyway i need a few pairs of pants hemmed so that means i'll have to get janice to do it. i think i might offer to babysit her kids for the night or the afternoon or something as payment. i'll see if she looks like she doesn't want to do it then tempt her with that. she has three kids so she doesn't get the chance to go out on her own without them much. i say it again, people who CHOOSE to have 3 kids are fucking crazy. two are a handful... you don't have 3 arms so why have three kids? although she didn't choose to have that many ...the last one was ..um...unplanned. but still after hanging with her and her kids HOLY SHIT. 3 is just too many. its a lot of work. and you see how one of them inevitably gets left out a tad. it always happens.

that's my weekend so far....